Hehaho.
 JieHui , BSS. "I just wanna be carefree". & Friends are my priority.▲ Just words,
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9th Day w/o you. I find everything so tired.
Thursday, February 11, 2010. 10:39 PM
I suppose i'd to cry once in a day ya? I just can't stop the tears, really can't. So now i gotta headache, headache how am i suppose to be happy when i'm not during cny? This year's cny sucks ttm! & i always tot 2oo9 was the worst year, but i beg to differ now. Cuz, there were many bad/sad/unlucky stuffs happened in this year than lastyear's. It's saddening & heartbreaking youknow. Hais.....Today, sku's fine i suppose? In a air-con classroom really feels great ! After sku... I'm kind of forgotten what had i done today alr. Damn it. My mind's all blank right now. & i'm really damn pissed off now. Parents dk what happened to me , it's fine , cuz i dont wish them to know either. But they just simply won't let me off & won't let me stay home in peace, & it's really true. Just bcuz of i said one sentence of thing, plus i said it in a veli joking way, but now daddie's angry for dk what fxuk ? Please luh, i got studies needs to cope, i got my own feelings to settle down with, & now you're just adding probs into my head now ? & what i'm thinking now is to run away from home! But who can i turn to ? Everytime i got my own probs, i'll tell everything to him, but now i can only keep it to myself. Cuz he's the one i trusted the most, but now he just simply hurt right thru my heart. So how am i gonna trust other ppls then? I know myself i can't. &, he won't be there for me anymore, i know, very clearly. I'm so tired, of caring & worrying for him. I'm so tired, when i knew things just simply over & it's not gonna be back anymore. I'm so tired, of trying to get an answer from him about the questions in my mind. I'm tired , of staying at this home, which parents dont even understands. I'm tired, of trying to be happy when i'm not. I'm tired of faking laughters and smiles. I'm tired of being who i am now. I'm tired of doing anything. I'm tired of thinking about anything now. So so so , tired of living in this world when nobody can understands. I'm tired asking myself why guys can just be so cruel & heartless ; Why can they put things down easily ; Why can they forgets about everything that have had happened. I need a long rest, seriously. It seems like i'd ran for v v v v v long continuosly, & getting so super duper tired now. If there's some kind of medicine that you eat it & you can fxukingly forgets things that you wants to , erase those memories, kill away those pains , how good it will be. Sometimes, living in your own fairytale world can makes you feels more better, sometimes, when you know nothing it can makes you feels more better too. I learnt things from this breakup. Which are, in a r/s , both parties must have mutual trust & that's the most impt. If you have any doubts in this r/s, tell it out & discuss it with your another half, keeping it to yourself, can only makes this love fade away. Love just come and go, & you really can't predict what will happens next, the next day , the next moment. If you wish to do something tgt with your the other half, faster get it done. Cuz don't ever thinks that, aiya will lastlong one & still got alot of time to do it, but you will never know you two just breakup like that one day , so suddenly. And time waits for no man , once it's gone it'll never be back again. If i knew the outcome will be like this, i rather i say it out & told you about that i'd sense something wrong. I regretted so much. I sense something's wrong yet i kept quiet cuz i know if i say out things just not gonna be good, and i tot we'll continue strongly still, and i can't bear to leave you cuz i'm afraid if i say out we'll end up going separate ways. I regretted so much, there's things we suppose to do, but due to my laziness & i tot we still have lots of time tgt, there's no rush to do everything we wanna do , we never get it done now & even if i wants to do now, we can't. Cuz i really never thought that we'll just end up like this, like now. I really never had. You made me believe you loved me, and i tot this r/s is still going fine, but it has gone haywire long ago. But what i'm really glad is , atleast we had memories or i'll just really regretted so damn f. much. But i tell myself, everything i think now are meaningless & no use alr. Cuz it's just too late now. I hopes friends around me who are attached now, cherish their r/s well & last long. I don't wish to hear anymore breakups within people i know. )': Love just come & go. Get hold of it & never letgo, cherish it like you're gonna lose it. |
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