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7th Day w/o you. I'm tired, really tired.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010. 8:46 PM
There's only three good things about today. First is, we on air-con in class today! Shiok ttm. & maybe, we're gonna on air-con from now till 24th i think. Due to the construction. LOL. Secondly, i pay attention during social studies, & Mr.Tham say our class are thinking now! Great thing, we'll keep it up:) Lastly, i laugh-ed again today. & is meatball who made me laugh the whole day. Yea, now she's my happypill.After sku > Pei ale home > She bath-ed & change-d > Sit her papa's car > Tpy > Pei her go eat subway > Bus-ed back bk > Waited for co. to release > Walk-ed back to kb > Bus-ed home. I feel so shag the whole day, thou i laugh-ed. Ystd i slept early & today early morn' i drank nes'cafe , coffee. But i still f. damn tired the whole day! & i'm so restless. Idk what's wrong with me either. Whole day i'm just keep thinking of him, missing him ; & wanna mm so much. Sighsss. I breakdown again, during CPA, idk why am i crying again, while listening to my earpiece. )': He didn't make it to sku again today. If he continues this way, i think in no time, he'll go boyshome or what uh. NOOOOO, idw him go in! ): I'm so worried. Even he really goes in (*touchwood*) , i'll will still wait, yea i'll... I can't get to see him the whole day! This really makes me goes sad. I walk pass bball court, saw nico & edwin there, then n said that he just walks off from there only , i was like orh. Then i went to block2 wait for sotong baobei & co. to release, n came to block2 here after that, he told me that he's over there, idk where but i think maybe bball court or kianhua. Wtfxuk right. Then after that we went kb alr, fxuk. I just can't get to see him. I feels so great after shouting at the kb bridge there! I shouted : I Love E_______! Feel shiok ttm. But sad thing is, he's not there to hear me say that. Went back to kb, i rmber alot of things. While walking back, we confirm needs to walk pass his block, so i rmber-ed, how i used to pei him home & changed, & we'll play while walking, at his house eat & play with him, take photos with him , showing each other tantrums, sleep tgt. I rmber how his ahma looks like, how his cousin always wanted to tickle me & i shun away. I rmber lastime when he used to smoke, i'll pei him go buy cigg, i rmber lastime when his bicycle got something wrong, i pei him go fix it. Reached kb, i rmbers how we gets to know each other better at there. We used to slack at there first, every saturday. & almost every after sku i think. Lol. I rmber we went to Sista's ah chor jia & you guys will mj-ed, i rmber going yonglee house & see you guys mj-ed, & i rmber when we first took our photo is at my dagu's house staircase there, you ; sista; ale came to find me and slack awhile there, were bored, thus we all took photo, i rmber our first photo(after we stead) , we took at yonglee's house , i rmber we used to hangout at the pratashop with friends, i rmber we first have our outing we meet at the bustop there & thou there's ale & sista with us, but we have funsxzc, i rmber you'll always accompany me to the bustop nearby there. I rmber you first bought thing for me at there, was the strawberry poky. I rmber we went to play swingz at there with friends. I rmber we waited for friends at the playground until they're ok , & yea only the two of us at the playground, i rmber you first longbang me with your bicycle at there, & i was struggling. I rmber, we fell down tgt from bicycle cuz i struggle-d too much. I rmber when one time sku's sports carnival or what, we went to kb early to meet co. , & you guys cycle all the way to ECP, while i sit terrence's ElectricBike. I rmber how you sacrifice for me, you would rather see me happy, so you brought S. to come & i gets to see him, cuz at that time idk you love me, & we stead alr you told me about it. I rmber, we always had our stomached filled with foods at the market or at the Take-A-Bite. I rmber, we slacked at kb those hdb blocks tgt , & all of us were having great fun. I rmber the times when we slacked at the carpark there too, with friends. Yes, i rmber-ed alot of things. But did he? I doubt so. & i wrote things at the whiteboard today during Mr.Lee's maths lesson, I wrote "I'll wait happily for you to return back to me" , "When love is broken but not the heart. It hurts & it's aching". Then Mr.Lee asked me, "you sure you'll be happy anot? " I was like, dk what to answer either D: Time really flies fast enuff, today marks the day i'm w/o you for a week. & i rmber-ed veryvery clearly how we broke up last week's tuesday. But i asked myself, "what's the point of remembering everything when he just thinks i'm like nothing to him & is like everything to him are bullshit?". It hurts every single part of my heart. & i really thinks whatever i do, he has a part in it. Everywhere i walked, everything i do , is what me & him lastime had done before. (long post again._.) Love makes a person goes so tired. So tired while waiting, but the heart just won't giveup & won't letgo. - I'm oh-so-hot headed right now. Someone who used to talk to you in a gentle way, now when you two are over, the tone is simply vvvvv opposite when he used to be. Guys are not to be trusted, i'm not trying to be bias. But it's true to some people, isn't it? You don't even know when can they lie to you & when are they talking about the truth. Now, bcuz of him, it just irks me when i sees guys out there. I'm so not gonna trust guys anymore, not anymore. Except for my family. Since they can be so hard-hearted , so am i . But that doesn't equals to i don't love him anymore, i'm gonna giveup on everything. Nope. I'm just trying to be strong infront of ppl , especially him. Makes him know, w/o him i won't die. Thou the heart still ache & hurts so much. ;11.31 PM |
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