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 JieHui , BSS. "I just wanna be carefree". & Friends are my priority.▲ Just words,
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2nd Day w/o you. It's so empty still.
Thursday, February 4, 2010. 9:10 PM
Today , i did cried again. Silently inside class, but meatball knows. & i'm just behind him. Saw him sms-ing, just breaks my heart. Cuz i'm not the one he'll sms-ed with anymore. Maybe just some other ppl then. I saw him smile, not to me but other ppls , i saw him talking , not to me but other ppls , i saw him laughing , not to me but other ppls. I'm not the one who can share his happy , joy , sad and angry-ness now. How sad when i think of it.After sku , idk where did i have that courage. I don't shed tears the whole afternoon till now . I feels so pain , feels like crying , but there's just no tears. What's happening to me ? But now, i think i'm starting to tear again. He no longer will protects me anymore, he won't disturb me anymore, he won't play pranks nor will he say jokes to me anymore. Today at comp lab i cried again , cuz i was thinking ; last week when we're here we still so happy and we have photos . But today , you sit at another side , and we're like totally strangers. During physic lesson , i take my notebook out & copy down notes, i rmber lastweek we copy notes tgt. Today at bball court, when i see bball flying over us i rmber you will try to catch it or whatever it is lastime. But now you won't. Today when i play the swing tgt with vivian today , i rmber when we used to slack at kb & i wanted to go play swing, and we went there with friends. But now ? Everything is just memories. It wont happen anymore right now. & whatever i do , you always have a part in it, whatever i do i just miss you and think of you. I keep thinking today, do you even rmber everything we did before? Do you even miss it ? I think whatever i do now , you just dont even take a look at me and care about it. Cuz right now, i think you'll just care about that bitch. I'm sorry that i call her this, i can't tahan alr. You probably just protects her instead of me, loves her instead of me, care about what she do instead of me , talk to her instead of me, sms with her instead of me. I told darrdarr i will be strong and happy now, but i'm sorry to say , i know i couldn't now. Whole day i'm just enduring , and be happy. Whole day i just laughs and forget about everything, but when friends are not by my side , everything come haunting me again. I think ystd will be your lastime viewing my blog le ba? Well , what i've got to say is, I WILL WAIT. Wait till one month ltr you tells me whats the reason is & i'll keep it to myself , wait till you love me back, wait till we goes back when 30thApril2oo9 that day start onwards. Maybe we can't go back like lastime, but we can start anew in future tgt, can't we? - & does he rmbers, today we're suppose to movie tgt if we're still tgt? I rmber-ed. That time, we went to watch Legion , and i saw one ad while buying drinks, the movie somehow like love novel or so & i wanna watch it. I think the title is "Bright Star". But... We are not able to watch it today. Maybe , it's someone else who'll accompany him to watch whatever movies he love or what now. Sigh. - Seeing you online too, yet i can't talk to you, it's so unbearable. Saw you face to face , yet we've got nothing to talks about, i feels so sad. When lastime we would talks no matter what. GREAT SIGH. ;10.14 pm. |
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